Siblings

Remember when you were young and you either hated or loved your brother/sister. I know I did not get along well with mine and could not care neither here nor there if she was around. I did love to make her life miserable - or course not on purpose :).. As time has gone on my views have changed I love her for who she is, respect her....but still love annoying her. I am the baby so I guess I have that right even if I am going to be 37. The roles have not changed much I still feel at times that I am the older one and she is the younger one, my parents still favour her over me...lol That is why the blacksheep label has stuck so well with me. But there is more acceptance of it and understanding.

Well here we are 5 kids later, one much older then the rest so there is definetly no issues on his part. But the other four oh wait we count Theia in there as she is only 9 and a half months old. So now we have narrowed it down to Hayden, Chase and Autumn. Brothers and Sisters, love it or hate it that is what they are and bonded with for life.

Now, it is up to me as a parent to try and form this unconditional love between all of them and know that they will love, care, play ....  for the rest of thier lives. Some days you sit back and watch these little people that John and I have created ,smile at them with such love and adoration for them. Then there are other days where you just want to ring thier bloody necks. Chase and Autumn play well together, just don't add Hayden into the equation, Hayden and Autumn play well together just don't add Chase to the play, Hayden and Chase play well just don't add Autumn. I really thought the more we had the more the friendships and playmates would form.

Right now with 6, 4, 2 and 9 months I am stuck dealing with fighting, pushing, biting, name calling.....and not to mention mischieve.........wow the things they get into. WHY!!!

Don't get me wrong there is a lot of laughter and play....but sometimes more fighting then playing.

My mom used to talk about the things that I used to get into when I was young,, I also remember the things I did with out getting caught. Unfortunatelly my kids are dealing with a mom who did all so it is hard for them to get away with anything. But when they are caught sometimes I can't help but laugh because it reminds of the dumbass things I used to do, with no explaination or reason as to why. I just did and felt like it.

So needless to say I have been given myself three times over! My mother really wanted to make sure that I knew what she went through. I get it now, it can stop!!!!! Let's just hope that Theia is a little less dramatic....

A mommy who loves her kids, lives through her kids.....and finds every reason to smile and laugh with them.